The New Adventure Begins...

40!! I am turning 40!! What is that about? I still feel 18 and often behave in a manner that would suggest I am 18. I am unsure how it has happened but 40 years have passed in this journey. It is an interesting feeling, I am not unhappy, not scared, just shocked that I have lived this life. In my youth, I was sure I would have "it" all figured out by 40. Not the case, I barely make it through the day without screwing something up or begging for forgiveness. So what is next?

Everything is next! I am so excited to conquer another 40 in a new phase and with a new found attitude. The list of things I hope for is immense and challenging but I think I can do this! In the next 40 years, my boys might have families of their own, I could move where I wish to live and there may be love in my life again. Imagine the possibilities. I have decided the best thing to do is stay open to the possibilities and stop planning so much. In the first 40, I have planned the crap out of it.. and when things didn't work as planned. I fell apart and the world was ending and etc. so on. So promise to self, Self... less planning, more spontaneous doing. See where it takes you and enjoy the ride a little more! So as I climb this 40 hill to ski the mountain on the other side, I am so excited to be approaching my mid-life with and attitude of adventure.